"Well don't." She makes it sound simple and she knows that, but for Natasha it is. She falls silent for a moment, letting it linger and simply resting in the peace that she's found with the new boundary they've crossed, and another emotion trickles in; anxiety. She's nervous, but she doesn't hide that from him. Not after he's already made so much effort for her today.
"SHIELD wasn't my job, it was my life. Every morning I woke up I wouldn't know where my mission was going to lead me, but it was never my decision. My life has always been that way, even before I joined the agency." Another pause, her fingers still brushing softly against cool skin. "Before SHIELD I was a part of something else, darker. Or at least, back then we were more obvious about our intentions..." Natasha shakes her head. "The point is, since I was eight I never made a decision of my own. When I woke up, when I slept... when I ate, when I read, it was all assigned for me. The day I showed up at the cabin, that was the first choice I've made in my life and even then, it didn't feel like much of a choice after everything that had happened. It feels different now. I've ended a chapter in my life that I don't want to look back on anymore."
She feels his head move and his comment leaves her smiling, and huffing a quiet laugh against his skin before she moves as well to look up at him. "Afraid that she's going to find her husband in the arms of another woman?" She raises an eyebrow, challenging and teasing, and instead of pulling away Natasha reaches up with both of her hands to take his face between them. She pulls him down slowly, because he's simply too damn tall in her opinion, and she stops once to read his eyes before continuing so that she can press a soft kiss against his cheek.
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"SHIELD wasn't my job, it was my life. Every morning I woke up I wouldn't know where my mission was going to lead me, but it was never my decision. My life has always been that way, even before I joined the agency." Another pause, her fingers still brushing softly against cool skin. "Before SHIELD I was a part of something else, darker. Or at least, back then we were more obvious about our intentions..." Natasha shakes her head. "The point is, since I was eight I never made a decision of my own. When I woke up, when I slept... when I ate, when I read, it was all assigned for me. The day I showed up at the cabin, that was the first choice I've made in my life and even then, it didn't feel like much of a choice after everything that had happened. It feels different now. I've ended a chapter in my life that I don't want to look back on anymore."
She feels his head move and his comment leaves her smiling, and huffing a quiet laugh against his skin before she moves as well to look up at him. "Afraid that she's going to find her husband in the arms of another woman?" She raises an eyebrow, challenging and teasing, and instead of pulling away Natasha reaches up with both of her hands to take his face between them. She pulls him down slowly, because he's simply too damn tall in her opinion, and she stops once to read his eyes before continuing so that she can press a soft kiss against his cheek.
Her mouth moves higher, full lips brushing against his ear with a whisper. "Ty moya sleduyushchaya glava, Dzhasper Uitlok Kheyl. Ty i Elis - moy pervyy vybor."