"Well fuck their law." She says it simply, eyes moving back to Alice as she barely hears voices on the other end of the phone, and Natasha's obviously deep in thought as her eyes move to the window. This is her fault for the leak in the first place, and even if Jasper or Alice won't blame her for that or say that they understood why it was necessary, she knows it to be the case.
Every decision that she's made in the past few weeks has been painfully reckless and Natasha knows it, but who can blame her? She's never made choices for herself before, perhaps she's getting a little high off of the simply ability to do so. Perhaps she doesn't consider her own mortality something to be coveted, or maybe Natasha has seen into a world where being just her will never truly be enough.
It's a world filled with gods and monsters, aliens and magic and it's all so far over her head that she feels as if she's drowning in it. Her choice to come here, it wasn't a choice to run. She's still going to make up for the bad of her past, but now she's going to do it on her terms, and why can't she have both? Why can't she have redemption and love? She doesn't deserve it, but since when has Natasha Romanoff let the world tell her exactly what she deserves.
"I'm useless like this." Her eyes move to Jasper suddenly as if she's made her mind, a toil of emotions twisting around within her until she finally settles on steel certainty, fortified with determination. "You'll have to change me before they get here." Simple. As if offering a forgotten umbrella in the rain.
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Every decision that she's made in the past few weeks has been painfully reckless and Natasha knows it, but who can blame her? She's never made choices for herself before, perhaps she's getting a little high off of the simply ability to do so. Perhaps she doesn't consider her own mortality something to be coveted, or maybe Natasha has seen into a world where being just her will never truly be enough.
It's a world filled with gods and monsters, aliens and magic and it's all so far over her head that she feels as if she's drowning in it. Her choice to come here, it wasn't a choice to run. She's still going to make up for the bad of her past, but now she's going to do it on her terms, and why can't she have both? Why can't she have redemption and love? She doesn't deserve it, but since when has Natasha Romanoff let the world tell her exactly what she deserves.
"I'm useless like this." Her eyes move to Jasper suddenly as if she's made her mind, a toil of emotions twisting around within her until she finally settles on steel certainty, fortified with determination. "You'll have to change me before they get here." Simple. As if offering a forgotten umbrella in the rain.